Don't Tell Me What to Do!

How do you feel when you are told to perform your duties better? When you are constantly judged on what kind of mother are you; when you are blamed if the baby is not eating. For god sake! If the child doesn’t want to eat what am i suppose to do? The baby is almost three years old now and you cannot force her if she doesn’t want to eat. Just because I am her mother do you think I have magic wand and all I have to do is to tap it and baby will eat?

I fail to understand, what kind of cheap thrills one gets by sending other people on a guilt trips. When they just go on like a broken record...you are a bad mother...you are a selfish mother...I say FUCK YOU!!

Dude, i know what kind of mom i am; i don’t owe you an explanation. And nagging me doesn’t make you any better at parenting and If you are so upset about me not feeding her why don’t you take the plunge and do it? Oh, but then you have your reasons...right? She doesn’t eat when you try?? And what in the fucks name give you a right to nag me? Am I any different? How do you suppose that i will be able to feed her? She will eat when she wants; didn’t her doctor say the same thing?

What is it you want from me? I am tried on your mood swings; grow up and act like a mature person!

Ofcourse! she loves me the most :)

So, my hubby really spoils our daughter and keeps telling her that he loves her the most. Infact, he keeps asking her : who do you love the most and then answers himself boastfully, “Daddy”; while the little one just sit there thinking, so now, how do I put some sense in his big head!!


That is not the point; the point is her first sentence, which was a couple of weeks back, was: Daddy… DHoo (read: go) away! Tada! So much for who do you love the most! bhooo

Ofcouse, she loves her Mummy dear the most, and that is incontestable, Darling. Wohoo!!

Ah- I'm a MOM Now

It has been pretty long since i have not written to you dear blog. I m sorry for keeping my life secret from you;you know I am happy to be a mom, most of the times, but you know it is little difficult to get used to run around someone all the time try to understand what my child wants when her vocabulary is limited to DADA . Plus i don’t have right on a minute of my time anymore :(. it is difficult but at the same time there is a great satisfying feeling in raising someone who is a part of me. So the love is unconditional. I know it sounds like cliché but unconditional love gives greatest satisfaction and pleasure better than having a shot of ecstasy (no i have never tried it)


All in all my decision of having a child so early in our marriage, while my husband wanted to wait for another four years, was not that wrong. i am not like this. don’t you? :D. But as you are about to know i have become a mom now (mixed feelings). So i was busy looking after my little one. She is almost eleven months old and already a handful. phewwww. anyway i am going to be regular again going to share my feelings, happiness, vent my anger here and little bit of gossiping as usual.

wow..i've completed 29 weeks

It’s great feeling that I have completed 29 weeks just 11 more weeks to go. At times I used to feel that I am going to be pregnant for eternity. But now as I have completed 2/3 of the time; I’m cheerful.

Baby has been moving and kicking a lot. Sometimes it feels funny how something inside your bump keeps moving… it’s little creepy too. It makes me think about all those movies where some evil thing gets inside your skin and starts moving. But, I know, I am being ridiculous. It is my baby inside me and can’t wait to see her.

Pregnancy at 23rd week and all that

I have not been able to write for a long time, because I was busy working and coping with early stages of pregnancy. But now I have complete 5 months and planning to take a sabbatical from next month. Therefore, now I will have plenty for time for my self.

Well pregnancy at six months: I feel good, no more mood swigs or nausea. But yes, now- a-days I have this unbearable itchiness from neck down till stomach. It is so agonizing that I wake up at night and start scratching like a dog. My doctor has recommended Lotus coco butter moisturizer but it’s of no help. I have been applying all type of oils such as coconut, olive, almond but nothing seems to work. I have tried applying different talcum powder also but as I said nothing works.

But, surprisingly, from yesterday onwards (till 12:54 today) i am not having this irritating itching problem. I have used some prickly heat talcum. I wish it works as I’m tired of behaving like an animal.

Apart from itching everything is perfect. The baby has started kicking and I have been playing Mozart for her. As I have read somewhere that yet-to-be born babies love Mozart. But I tell you, I was damn difficult to find a Mozart CD in Delhi. We looked in Connaught place, South Ex and finally got just one CD in Anasal Plaza, PlaneM. Anyway, my baby is so far not reacting to any music; however we are hopeful that she soon will.

My Tiny Bragger

I had got my ultrasound done at 12 weeks. The baby was so tiny back then, some two inches long. She was floating like a fish in the water. We, my husband and I, watched her for two minutes and during those minutes she did so many tricks. It was, as if, she new her parents are watching her so she should show off her skills :).

We saw her stretching, crossing legs, and then she put her tiny hand on her knee but after a while she turned her back on us. May be she got bored of all this :).

Now I am excitingly looking forwarded to see her in next ultrasound. I am sure she will be a lot bigger and would know lot more stuff to show off:).

I'm 15 Weeks Pregnant

I have been thinking from a long time to start a mommy’s blog. Well, now I am 15 weeks pregnant so I though should not delay my decision to start blog any longer.

Now-a-days, i am reading a lot on pregnancy and the baby’s development. Yesterday I read that at 15 weeks the mom-to-be can also feel the baby kicking inside. Since then I am waiting my daughter, oh, yes I wish to have a daughter, to kick. Just five minutes back I felt a rumble in my stomach wonder if the baby did a back flip or was it my stomach grumbling.